I met Kimberly serendipitously through a referral from another photographer that was booked when she was looking to have maternity photos taken. We got to talking and she shared her amazing story of loss, faith and ultimately happiness with me. For anyone who has suffered the loss of a baby (myself included), this story, I hope, will offer comfort and hope.

Kimberly refers to her baby as a “Rainbow Baby”.

A “rainbow baby” is a baby that is born following a miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death or infant loss. In the real world, a beautiful and bright rainbow follows a storm and gives hope of things getting better. … A rainbow baby brings light but by no means replaces the angel baby.

We celebrated at the end of her session with rainbow confetti and tears of joy. Here is her story:

My name is Kimberly and I want to share my journey with you to give someone who has lost a baby or multiple babies, hope…

I fell in love with the man I dreamed of and hoped for all my life. We moved to NJ and did all the things you do when you fall in love, plan a wedding, get married and moved into a home. Then comes wanting children for most of us. For me it wasn’t that easy. I can remember as a little girl me wanting to be a mom. It was just something I knew I would be amazing at.

I have had four losses in total. The first was an ectopic pregnancy (they had to remove my tube). The second loss we lost a baby boy. It was so hard because after being told that I only had one tube, and hopefully it is working well, I didn’t even know if I could get pregnant! It was so upsetting because we heard the heart beat and then weeks later when we went for a checkup the baby didn’t make it. My whole world just felt so lonely (I still cry when I talk about it).

Pushing forward we went on to trying again, and I was pregnant and shortly thereafter had our 3^rd miscarriage.. Again, I was devastated. I (we) refused to give up. Instead I tried yet again and this time we got pregnant. I didn’t miscarry and now I have my rainbow! A baby boy, Noah, who is the love of my life He’s 3 ½ year old. I so was scared to think about giving him a sibling because I didn’t know if I could have another successful pregnancy but we didn’t give up. We kept our faith and tried years later.

Deciding to try once again, I quickly conceived but again I miscarried for the 4th time. I felt so much pain words could not possibly describe. This time around I was so excited, I shared the news with my son and he was so happy. At this point I now had to tell my baby boy who was 3 ½ that mommy lost this baby and the baby went to heaven. It’s a beautiful thing when you believe in God and can share that with your child. So now he knows this baby we lost is up in heaven watching over him, and us.

Fast forward a couple more months and we found out we were pregnant once again However, this time I had Faith in me, pun intended, and no matter what, I just wasn’t going to give up.  I believed that God wanted me to be a mom again.

So now I’m 7 1/2 months pregnant with my baby girl that we named Faith (Faith is to believe). For all of this to happen, I had to believe and she is now due this December of 2017.

I hope my journey gives women strength to realize if you believe and never give up, and want something so bad, it can happen.

Thank you for letting me share my story with you